friend, Love

I guess we start our dissent
into you 
being a poem
friend 
another ex
friend
a person I love 
I’ll never talk to 
again 
a friend 
who can’t be my friend because 
you need some 
one
to prove how special and lovable 
you are 
to yourself.
I guess I can’t do that,
friend, because
that’s not how
fairytales work.
my heart thinking 
this will turn around and I can 
still love you,
friend
as if there is enough love 
friend
too much love, love?
in this world to deny 
love-
real
love.
friend, love.
as if the only love we are 
allowed to feel 
Is from a 
one 
and 
only. 
no. 
Fuck your fairytale. 
no 
one 
will make you
love you 
you 
have to do that.
Friend.
just keep throwing each other’s love
away, trying 
as if love is 
one. 
I hate losing my
friend 
I hate losing my
love 
because you hate the word—
friend,
Love.