Eating Disorder Recovery

He gave me 
my requested black 
coffee 
in a white mug
that was slightly 
wider, thicker, and 
heavier than 
the average 
white coffee mug. 
but still 
when I grabbed it, it 
was lighter than 
I expected. 
He filled it 3/4 of the way. 
I always 
fill my cup up. 
I always 
fill my cup up. 
I don’t 
ask myself 
how much coffee 
do I want. 
I always fill my cup up.