Fantasy

“surprised”
I chose as a word for
inspiration,
but
second place
to “disappointment”
because
every
other
moment
has plenty
and i'm not in the mood
for disappointment
this morning.

Surprised that
I don't go
to the beach
more
than I had imagined
when I created this
Saturday morning
fantasy
of the sun
touching my toes
through the window
Like it is now.

I’ll walk
down
but,
I can’t decide
between two books.

Interested to break
the rules
that prevented me
from
this
breathing in
this.

It often
feels unsafe
here.

drenched in perfectness
sunshine
and fear
I settle
into disappointment
chose the book
that gives
knowledge
for some
future fantasy.