The Possibility of Embodiment

I’ve been doing yoga for about 8 years. 
I haven’t figured out 
how to breathe while I move, 
or move while I breathe.
I haven’t wasted these 8 years. 

I spent them in my brain, 
the only place I was safe 
while I was learning 
how ok right now might be. 

I don’t know what my body feels like 

I don’t know what it feels like when you touch me. 
when I’m scared. 
when I’m happy. 

Oh what a pleasure 
The possibilities 
To have such a gift unopened 
To have this journey.
To know I am missing. 
To know that ok 
To feel that ok